I'm in a low mood rn, but I want to share with people some of the good things, because there have been good things. And I can't dwell and get bitter over what is done and past.
Study abroad in Rome was probably the best choice I ever made, hands down. I made friends and there was that almost romance (I just about drunk confessed my crush at a party lolllll).
When I got back I finished Pokemon X with my brother, and we watched so much anime. I miss when we would do stuff like that between school terms, I'm not home much except for winter break. Speaking of which, that Mew yooo I have waited 84 years for a Mew.
I'm graduating this year! Yay no more homework! And as a member of a fraternity, I might pick up and get a Little (a mentee), I already have 1 or 2 who I want from the new class lol. Making new friends etc.
I have some ideas for the future that I want to do, they're shaping in my mind but opportunities are opening up, so we'll see
As for art...I know art school isn't the One Way to be a good artist, but it was the experience I wish I had. I guess it's not too late to still do, but without scholarships I would be digging a hole for myself. I would rather move forward and grow on my own.
I realize that with patience, my skills will come back, and they will get better far more than I imagined, I just have to persist
And for my friends that I haven't spoken to in such a long time, I get anxious and feel like a nuisance if I message you/simultaneously I feel like you guys hate me so that's why you don't talk to me. I KNOW this is untrue for the most part we are all just bad at correspondence lol. But as a blanket statement: I miss you guys, and I want to see you again. Sorry for being a terrible friend in what ways I may not have realized until much, much later. I'm trying to be a better person, you deserve that.